As much as I want to write tonight - I don't know what to say.... it is almost as if the words have dried up and there is nothing left to say...... I think that we need to come to a point in our lives and with this situation that we have to say - enough is enough..... we have really done as much as we can..... like I mentioned - we will go to the ends of the earth to find you but we cannot keep going on like this.... it really is going to kill one of us if we don't take care of ourselves. You dad is in a really bad state right now and I am very worried about him.
I will keep updating the blog for as long as it takes for you to come home - other than that there is nothing more that we can do. You are 27 years old and if you don't want to come home and don't want to be here with us, you know what, it is your choice and pretty much nothing we can do about it.
That being said:
- We are not giving up on you;
- We are not and will never be mad at you for this;
- You will always have a place in our hearts and in our home - no matter what;
- We will welcome you back with open arms anytime you change your mind and want to come back;
- If you ever need help, we are just a phone call away;
- If you ever need to come home and need us to come get you, we will not think twice - we will be there so fast it will make your head spin;
- We love you very much;
- We miss you very much;
- We will worry about you every day - nothing we can do to change that;
- We will do anything to have you back but now it has to come from your side.
Please don't take this the wrong way.... You now have to come home on your own.... If you are to proud and to stubburn, we cannot keep chasing you around the country. This is a two way street and we are standing halfway waiting for you to come and meet us.. It is now up to you to come the rest of the way. We are going to do the best we can to go on with out daily business and I can tell you now, it is going to be really hard... but we cannot keep blaming ourselves and stop living.
We have appologized to you many times and it is up to you to forgive us....
We love you and we miss you very much and we will be patiently waiting for you to come home.....
LOVE, HUGS & KISSES;
Dad and Ma