Saturday, September 29, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 09-29-2012 - 1:40am

How long is long enough? That is a question that I would not have dreamed asking a year ago...... It has now been almost eight months since Rocky left.... It is so nice to talk with him but it is so hard to know that he is not home.

I know that I should have updated this blog so I apologize for not doing it sooner. I will write an update later this week and I will keep on writing from now on until Rocky is back home. I have to admit that I have written, just not on the blog. Since I stopped writing on here I have written more than 50 letters to Rocky..... And it was so nice to have him in person on the receiving end....

Thanks for all your ongoing prayers - and also for all our friend - the ones i have met in person and the ones that i have not met yet.  I know that that is what has kept us all from going crazy through this tough time.

Thank you,

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 05-30-2012 - 9:30am

Rocky is still not home but we are so grateful that he is alive and well. He calls us often and speaks for a few minutes at a time.... We are still praying for his safe return to us and hope that you all are too.

We believe that he will be home soon and this time for good.

Please remember to tell the people in your life how much you love them - don't assume that they know. That might be the biggest mistake that you can ever make....

Love you Rocky - look forward to your calls and can't wait to see you!!

Dad & Ma

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 05-15-2012 - 11:59pm

This is my last entry - I am still writing but now I have an "address" to write to....

I have so much to say that I hardly know where to start.  

On Thursday my husband decided to stay in Jacksonville, Florida for one more day before heading back to Texas.  He even bought bicycles to make sure that no stone is unturned.....   Needless to say it was a really long day.  In the mean time I missed a phone call that was about to change our lives.....   The phone call was to say that they found Rocky.....   He was alive and now we knew where he was....   His dad did not hesitate for a minute, he got in the car and headed towards Georgia ........     How exciting but at the same time so emotional and soooo scary because you have no idea what to expect.....    Did Rocky even want to see us,? Did he want to talk with us? Will he be willing to accept our apology?  All these question like so many others in the past three months....  BUT at this stage nothing mattered, Rocky was alive and we were so grateful for this.

The first thing I did was to thank God that he was alive.  We have to work on the rest later.  I prayed so much in the past week but the difference this time was I finally understood what it was to hand your problems over to God in stead of trying to handle everything yourself.  This was not because of our perseverance or because we drove so far looking, it is simply because of the grace of God.  

We still have some hurdles to overcome but I believe with all my heart that this is still going to work out and our family will be reunited soon.  We continue praying.....

We saw him on Sunday and again on Monday before we headed back to Texas. He is looking great and is in good spirits. This is truly a blessing and we pray that God willing, we will be reunited very soon.

Rocky, we love you very much and we will make sure that from now on you are our number one priority, whether you are five or ninety five, you will always be our child and we will always be there for you!!!! Don't you EVER again forget that.... We are very grateful and very proud to have a son like you.....

Dad and Ma

PS: Thanks so much for all the support, advice and most of all prayers from everyone that read this blog. Please continue to pray for us because Rocky is not quite home yet.....

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 2012-05-12 - 10:00pm

We have a huge breakthrough so I will update the blog tomorrow night with the latest news...... We are on the other side of the country and tomorrow is going to be a very big day for us.

Please pray for us so we can bring Rocky home soon.

Let's just say for right now, we are happier today then we have been in at least three months!!!


Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 2012-05-09 - 10:00pm

This is going to be a short note because tonight I am not very happy....

You know what the consequences are of you not getting back to school so PLEASE thinks very hard about your next step. You might think that you are playing a game or that you are very clever to hide from the world, but you know what, you are jeapodizing your future.

Your dad is in Florida, Daytona Beach to be exact until tomorrow morning. He then starts driving back to Texas. So, you have two choices.....
- Call him and get a ride with him from wherever you are. He will come and pick you up no matter where you are. His number will be in your Facebook email.
- Ignore this and pay the price for your actions. Just remember, you make this bed, you lie in it.

We have now done EVERYTHING we could and much much more to make up for anything we could ever have done to harm you you so this will be the last time that we spend any time or money looking for you.... After all, you are 27 years old and are responsible for your own actions.

We want to help you, get you through college, get you your job back, see if we can get you a sport scholarship, get the grant that was approved but YOU, AND ONLY YOU, can make this happen.

We are running out of time so this needs to happens really fast. You cannot blame anyone else for this - if you decide to keep on roaming around, that is fine but if things don't work out the way you planned, you only have yourself to blame for it after today.

We love you and we miss you,
Dad and Ma

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 2012-05-08 - 10:00pm

Hi Rocky,

What would I give to just sit and talk to you - person to person.... Mothers Day is coming up this weekend and I figured if you missed my birthday than there is no way that you are even going to think of me on Mothers Day.... I still have the card that you made me last year and I will keep that forever..... it was so sweet..... you always make the word "Stepmother" sounds like a wonderful thing.... you make me feel special..... thank you so much for that.... Thanks for making me feel like a mother for the first time in my life last year....

Some people believe in coincidence - I believe in miracles..... I believe that God is always at work to help us - to listen to us and to answer
our prayers..... I realize that not all of our prayers are answered. Sometimes it is for our own good. Sometimes it just takes longer for God to answer our prayers because the time is not right....

We drove to Florida about six weeks ago - your dad lost his wallet and a person from Houston (now living in Florida) picked it up and called him. There was only one business card in the wallet and the guy found the number and called us - we were only one block away from where he had a restaurant and bar. That to me was a micacle.

This morning I prayed for another miracle - just a sign that you are alive.... anything..... I think that we have a solid lead but I am still praying that your dad finds you. That this is over by the end of this week. That I get home and you come running out of your room to come and say hi.... Rocky, there are - as usual - many people praying for your to come home.... for your safe return.... As soon as I am done with this I am going to go on my knees and pray that God keeps you safe - that He leads you home to where you belong - that he reunites you with your Dad...... I believe in miracles and I believe that God is going to answer our prayers..... I believe that you are coming home.

I know that I have no right to ask you this but if you can find it in your heart - please make this another special Mothers Day for me.....

I love you and miss you very much,

Monday, May 7, 2012

Bring Rocky Home - 2012-05-07 - 11:00pm

There is so much that I want to say to you tonight but I don't ever want you to think that I am mad at you....

I am frustrated, I am sad, I am mad at myself, I am scared..... those are just some of the feeling that I have at the moment..... To be honest with you, I don't even know if you are alive. You wrote to me on March 14th - just a few sentences but that was not enough.... no one has seen you or heard from you in almost two months.... It is so scary not to know.... The police is not doing anything, they assume that you left on your own so you are fine. WE JUST DON'T KNOW!!!

I trust that you are safe but there is that little fear that creeps in every now and again: "What if he is not OK"? I dont even want to tell your dad what I am thinking.... everytime I do that, I pray to God just to keep you safe, to let you contact us and just tell us where you are. I know that this is not easy for you but this is so much harder for everyone that loves you and that careS about you. You know where we all are - you have the power to contact us whenever you like but for us, there is noting to confort us, nothing to make us feel better, no number that we can call just to talk with you.

Like I said, I am not mad at you but if I could only talk to you, just hear your voice.... It would be so much better than to not know.... this is driving me crazy. I go though stages where I am fine, where I believe everything is ok... I pray every day, I know that there are still hundreds of people praying for you every day, people all over the world - praying that God keeps you safe, praying that you will come home, praying that you have food to eat.... I mostly want you to be happy, I hope that you have someone to talk to, someone that cares about you as much as we do... I am also a little selfish because I really just want to to come home.

Rocky, I don't care if people think that I am making a fool of myself for begging you to come home... I don't care to admit that I made many mistakes when it comes to you... I don't care what anyone thinks of me - all I care about right now is that we find you and that you come back home to us. I would like nothing more than for you to have a family, to feel a part of a family and to give you everything that you ever wanted - and I am not talking about material things, I am talking about love, respect, support - all of those things.

It is so nice to see that some of the flyers that we mailed out actually made it to the doors of some of the shelters. The minister that put this flyer up also called me and gave me some really good advice when I was there. She is doing such a wonderful job at the shelters but there is such a shortage of money and people to help.

Just so you know - we are running around all over the country looking for you.... you dad is so sad and so disappointed when he gets home at night and we found nothing. But you know what - we get up the next morning and start all over again.... hoping for a better day.... and praying for the outcome that we all so badly need....

We love you and miss you so much,

Dad and Ma