Bring Rocky Home - 2012-02-13 - 11:00pm

To all that reads this - here is an update on what we did today:

Another day of waiting.....
Waiting for the detecive to call..... he finally did
Waiting for the South African embasy to call........ still waiting
Waiting for miracles..... still waiting....

The worst part is the waiting.... Every time a car drives by you look out the window but it just keeps on driving - it is both good and bad.... good because there is hope that everything is still ok - bad because you still don't know where he is.

The second worse is the feeling that you need to do something but you don't know exactly what - and there are no books or flyers that can tell you what to do.... every case is different so there are no set rules on how to solve it.

We spoke to the cops today..... they still have nothing..... we are going to see what we can do to put photo's on the local news stations..... I sent e-mails and left voicemails to them all today. The detective is going to see form his side what he can do to help us get them on the news sooner than later.

We still need to hear from the embassy to see what they found.... hopefully we hear soon.... I am not holding my breath...

We are also talking to a private investigator tomorrow....

Hopefully one of these will give us some idea or have some positive results for us...... we can only hope and pray.

The college called today and they are cancelling his classes. It is so sad that in one day he went from being so proud of his accomplishments to walking away from it all.... I know that I are responsable for this somehow - I know that he had other issues also that he had to deal with but I am notsure what all contributed to this happening. We have had arguements before but we were always able to resolve them and then everything was good again.... There was nothing different that night..... I appoligized and he said "Appology accepted"..... that was a lie because if that was the truth why did he leave and why did he not call to tell us that he was ok?

I don't know how much longer I can do this..... I am so tired - I check his bank account every 30 - 60 minues to make sure that there is no activity.... that will at least give us some idication on where to look but so far there has been nothing since the 4th - that is 10 days already.....

People send me all these positive messages but I am having a really hard time staying positive...... I am doing my best but sometimes that is not good enough.

Regan called today - he spoke to Peet and myself and he is really sad also..... I am not forgetting that there are a lot of people that are going thru this with us.... the kids in particular... they are very fond of Rocky because he always plays with them - he is as hyperactive as what they are....... most likely more that them sometimes :-)

I need to get one good nighs sleep so I am going to take something to make me sleep.... that being said... I have been responding to e-mails, checking them, checking my Facebook account, bank account and anything else I can think of thru the night so tonight I am not going to do that. I will respond to all my friends and family when I wake up in the morning....

Thank you so much for all your love and support... not only for Peet and myself but also your love for Rocky....

To Rocky

I know that there is a big chance that you are not reading this but still I have to write every night just in case.

I don't know what else to say for you to come home - The college just called and unless you return soon they will not be able to keep you enrolled..... If you read this and you want to come home, please call us so we can come get you whereever you are... it does not even have to be in this state....

If you dont know by now how much we love you - even if we are always hard on you - then I guess there is not much more that I can say to convince you....

Your dad said this morning that he wish that you would come home so he could sort things out with you.... I know that you think you owe us and that you wanted to show the world that you can make it on your own.... well - we never doubted that for a moment, we know that you can do anything you put your mind to..... but right now you need to let us help you until you get your Greencard - then you can leave and never come back.... BUT please let us help you right now.... I can not promise that it will be perfect, we are going to fight, we are going to have arguments but you know what - that is what families do..... They don't stop loving each other every time they have a fight...... In the end it is not all bad....... whether we fight or not - we still love you and hopefully you still love us.....

We really want you to come home.... you are just like your dad - so stubburn....

One last thing.... I dont know if you realize how many people all over the world is praying for your save return........ if you knew - you would pick up a phone right this minute and call us to come get you......

If you still doubt that we love you I don't know what more I can say...